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Approximately another month has passed since I last blogged.

I really am ready for bed now, but I'll just blog a bit.

So since internship has ended, I have relatively more time for 'me' time and hanging out with friends (though not that successful due to time constraint).

I don't really have much to say.. Or is it that I have so much to say I don't really know where to start?

I'll steal a line of Sarah's : I love my friends!

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder".....NAH (to me anyways)

Because it's those who make good out of the bad
Because it's those who listen
Because it's those who make you laugh
Because it's those with whom you can be silly with
Because it's those who push you on in times of bleak

=)

Helllloooooo!

It has been exactly a month since I last blogged. Obviously I've been busy with work and spending my weekends to the fullest. One more week left till the internship ends. I'm not really looking forward to school. I prefer the environment at work. You work, you get appreciation from clients, rantings and teasings from colleagues. Despite having no social life, I find myself laughing everyday at work, either at myself or the people there. I wouldn't say I feel like one of them cos' to me, I've set this barrier. I don't know how to describe it, but I just like to feel like the 'baby' of the team, and their expectations are not that high (not exactly anyways). They've asked me if to work there after my graduation, but at the end of the day, it's up to the AVP.

I just can't wait for Friday, not cos' internship's ending but, well... We'll see if I even make it.

I won't exactly say I'm good buddies with all of them. Technically it has only been a slightly over a month since I got to know them since I've been sitting apart from them for the first few weeks. But I've been getting sarcastic remarks and laughter from them. It just feels good to actually feel at least you're not THAT apart from them.

The beginning of the ending .

Apologies for the somewhat emo post below.

The weekends which just passed was time well spent. Went to Sarah's for Open House, and saw familiar faces. As usual, Faisal was teasing me (I'll always be a blonde in his eyes. HAHA) Met Jhon after a gazillion years not seeing him.

To town. To Mt Faber. The waiter was 'lame-ly' funny.

After which me and Bolzie went to drive-thru at ECP. It was 4 in the morning when I reached home.

The very next day, went to get some groceries with Mum. She'd had initially grounded me from using the car since I got home quite late the previous day. But hey, I still managed to get the car. I can't really imagine the weekends without getting around with a car =\

So, with Bolzie (again), we VIVO-ed. I swear I hadn't heard of River Island till I saw the boutique. Blame me for the ignorance. If memory serves me correctly, we went to Siglap's Starbucks after that. Reached home at around 1+ Even so, I only headed to bed at around 3+ I still had the energy to watch episodes from 'Big Shots' and 'Supernatural'.

Work has been hectic. It has been since the week before with me sitting alongside my other colleagues. Previously I was sitting in a department I wasn't even doing work for. So yeah, I've been learning like really A LOT. Today, I actually left the office only at half past 1, the latest ever, and I didn't go out for dinner. Instead I had a sandwich that my mum had packed for me and ate with 2 colleagues, which was kinda funny. And what I also find funny is when my colleagues can spurt out vulgarities at e-mails. Heh. And even, 'sing' to the tune of the person on the other line. I'm busy, yet I'm kept somewhat entertained. The next time I step into the office, I'll be switching desks, hopefully not too far away from my colleagues.

Nevertheless, I still remember the social life I ONCE had. It's gonna be for another month.

I have so much to say but can't say them out till the weekends. By then, I'd already have forgotten them all, my thoughts.

Julie: I know it's somewhat stupid, but I can please say again how I enjoyed/appreciated the phone call on Sunday afternoon, though I'd just woke up, though probably half the time I was talking to you in the toilet, and though I was acting like a baby.

Sam: I HAVE THINGS TO TELL YOU ABOUT 'SHORT FART'. I THINK YOU ARE GOING TO HATE ME A LITTLE. HAHA. AND REMEMBER THAT I HAVE TO GET MY JEANS ALTERED. THANKS.

Rad: I know you've been having problems, but have never had the time to sit down with you and talk about it. I'm so so sorry. It's people like me that make you, oh well, you should know yeah? But again, I'm really sorry. We'll meet soon ok?

Monisha: I think you asked me for 'kuih'. But frankly, this year my house has no 'kuih'. HAHA. And yes, I still owe you prata. So long overdued please. December ok?

Hi All (or more appropriately, "Hi Me")

It's 2 in the morning, when I'm supposed to be sleeping like regular people. But no, I'm still wide awake, with no one to talk to.

This post should be about Hari Raya, but no, I'm not going to talk about it, just because for one, I'm not the celebratory kind. Call me a wet blanket, but hey, everyone has the right to their own issues.

This post could be about my love life, but no. Yet again I'm not going to talk about it, just because for one, it still kinda pisses me off. Secondly, I don't care.

This post would include some of my pet peeves as can be read by the following:

1) When they said some things were never meant to be said, those people really meant it. Like SERIOUSLY, do you REALLY have to tell the whole world? We are glad you like to entertain us with the 'juice', but SERIOUSLY, does EVERYONE have to know?

2) For example, could you imagine the pope practicing Witchcraft? Okay, that was a little TOO far-fetched. Ok. Carrie Underwood eating beef. That's more like it.

3) Paranoid people.

I am so in the "I-want-to-find-fault-with-each-one-even-if-there-is-none" mood.

So before I offend anyone else, somewhat kind words from me:

You may not be who you think you are to me.

I've some things on my mind.

I just finished watching ( in running order) Prison Break S3, Heroes S2, Bones S3, Private Practice S1, Ugly Betty S2, Grey's Anatomy S4 and CSI:LV S8. A tad too many shows for my own good for the night. But hey, I've been deprived of them for the last couple of months. And I must say I was impressed by Private Practice. I thought it was gonna be some failed project spin-0ff, but I managed to cry on the very FIRST episode, and we all know what this means. It is a GOOD show. Ugly Betty is still good, though there are some incidents that when you think about it, is so 'Soap Opera De La Esponial'. Nevertheless, yes, I cried on the comeback episode. Maybe it's the sleep deprivation.

Internship is fine. I'm doing more stuff though compared to the rest, I'm kind of slack (but not as slack as Sharon. HAHA) And I feel a little bit more in place. Taxi claims are a b*tch.

Relationships. Okay, maybe I don't want to talk to them. (Actually I forgot what I'd wanted to say bout' them)

Understanding oneself. I guess no one else can understand yourself other than you, yourself (and maybe your mother). To others, it may be an absurd idea, but to me it's just another phase I want to go through.

The past. Does the past matter? I thought it didn't matter. Till..

Sarah: Give me your hand.
Me: Why?
Sarah: Just give it to me.
(pinches my inner arm)
Me: Ouch! Why did you do that for?
Sarah: Why do you want to know? It's in the past what.

I rest my case. And I swear there's still a bruise.

I guess the truth behind the past, it sets you free. No more wondering. No more doubts. No more questions. No more uncertainty.

For the better or the worse, the past is here to stay.

So, upon Monisha's request, I've decided to blog.

Let's see, obviously the hot topic would be the internship.

So just a quick summary.

I've been working London hours. When we fellow interns are bored, we e-mail each other through our corporate e-mail addresses. Sometimes we make appointments to meet at the pantry. I've attended 3 meetings within 1 week.

I've been doing call-backs for confirmation of payments to countries which would include Germany, Holland, Italy, Hong Kong and India. Germans are the hardest to talk to for me. The Dutch are nice. I've also been assigned to do reset advices, which would be providing clients with information of interest amounts receivable/payable at a value date. The satisfaction I get is from getting an acknowledgment e-mail from the client and being able to bring across information to overseas clients.

The department I'm working in is experiencing unusually high volumes of cashflow, thus everyone seems to be busy. I don't even know to whom I'm supposed to report to i.e. manager and with that will never know who is going to fill in the performance appraisal form. Colleagues are helpful and nice. I ask questions and they're willing to explain processes to me and provide for me notes on applications.

Speaking of applications, I haven't been given the green light to access some applications thus, I'm unable to reduce the department's workload as of yet. I think once I get all the required applications, I'll be helping out much. Currently, one of the colleagues is training me to reconcile amounts in the LCH (London Clearing House). She'll sit with me for a week or so until she's confident I can do it on my own BUT, I don't have the application on my computer.

Oh yes, I've my own desk cos' apparently the guy who was previously at my place has been transferred to another department. My desk is situated by the window, sandwiched between 2 British women. You'd say a window view is cool, but it's facing a construction site for a condominium and the IR (I think).

Everyday we fellow interns travel up to the 24th floor and blow our ears out to get rid of the 'whatever-it-is-you-call-it'. We take 1 hour dinner breaks. There's a microwave oven, a fridge, a coffee maker, hot/cold water dispenser, and packets of tea (Lipton or Green). Milo, Coffeemate and sugar powders are contained in jars. The toilets are classy (to me at least). Taxi fares are making me broke (though we'll be reimbursed).

Okay, that was a long summary. I hope it has given an overview about my week at CS though.

Throughout the whole working life experience, I've learnt some things.

In school, you're still able to hang out with the many friends you may have. Once you start work, you'll have to balance your time between friends and family over the weekends. With that, you're more likely to have few friends that you keep in contact with on a regular basis. That's what I think and feel anyways.

If you can't get along with the people at the workplace, you're in deep s**t.

To break the ice, always smile.

Bottomline, at the end of this academic life, only few will stick around for the long haul, like those whom you're so sure will 'lepak' with you forever, no matter where we may be in our lives =)

And to end this entry off, the NEW music video from Daughtry, 'Over You'. C'mon, you've gotta love their frontman. Hot stuff ;-)

And yes, the exams are finally over..Like FINALLY.

Looking back when I thought why in the world did the school have to spread out 4 papers over a span of 2 weeks, I'm fortunate they did that. It gave me time to at least study a day before the paper with Friday & Saturday being my 'emotionally drained' days if you could call it that.

To Julie & Sue: I know I don't have to apologize, but I'm sorry for crying like a lil' baby =\

So let's see.. mmmmm, let's skip the boring exam stuff.

Went to town with Neh & Val after the last paper. All the pent-up need to want to go out after being 'stuck' at home for the last 2 weeks can have effects on one's mind. Like seriously. It was just a nice feeling to go out into the 'world' again. Hur hur hur.

Reached home at a lil' before 7. Did some household chores, switched on the computer. Went to Sarah's blog. I teared. I felt so, so bad. Not that I did anythin' bad. It's just bout' thinking bout' what will be, and what will not be. And with that, I decided to meet her, along with Khairi. My mum called in the midst and this was how the conversation went:

Mum: You told me you wanted to be home by 6. Look at the time now.
Me: Huh? I was at home just now what.
Mum: Since when?
Me: Just now lah. I reached home at around 7 what.
Mum: You don't bluff.
Me: Really! I took down the clothes and hung up the laundry.
Mum: Is it? Where got?
Me: Yah. Remember I asked you bout' the 'Ankh' symbol online and you told me not to get it cos' it signified the vulva & testicular?
Mum: Oh! Now I remember.
Me: You were asleep when I left the house again.
Mum: No wonder lah.

FYI: Yes, me and mum talk to each other online although we're in the same house. Yes, we do rely on technology THAT much.

FYI2: Seriously, don't ask bout' the 'Ankh' symbol thingy.

So anyways, we left the hut at around midnight. Sarah & I headed for MacD's for our supper and stayed there for a lil' over 2 hours.

When bolzie calls me at 2 in the morning, it's fine. When I call her at the same time, she's already asleep. Exhibit A: Now.

And as of now, I've yet to sign my contract with Credit Suisse. I'm excited at the prospects of doing me internship with a reputable company, yet I'm petrified of screwing up. 4PM-1AM. How cool is that. HAH.