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"You do take my breath away..You make my heart beat faster..You make my palms sweat..But that doesn't mean I don't love you; it means I do. Sometimes your heart knows things your mind can't explain. And my heart doesn't race for anyone else."
- Daniel Meade (Ugly Betty)

I just found his words 'oh-so-sweet', but of course you've gotta feel for him since somethin' unfortunate later happens to him. Some sorta 'karma' for him I guess.

So, anyways, being a rose among the thorns ain't sucha bad thing, especially when you find yourself not trying to look at a person for too long =X



man jep jai, yang khaao...


kor tode na kah~

It has been one helluva long day.

Woke up at 7:30 to head to CDC for some admin business. Had to rush to ITE College East by 9 to attend some NE symposium which was, to me, uninteresting. By 1, we headed back to TP for the Open House. Fast forward to 19:00, I made my way to City Hall to meet Sarah. Had our dinner at MS' KFC's. Took the train back to Tam by 22:30 to meet FX.

I don't know what it was but me and Sarah were trying to speak with some English accents and not to be influenced by externalaties. I think it kinda died while the 3 of us were talking under the void deck. Rewind back to 8 years ago. Memories. Bliss. It was just one helluva night. Laughing without a care of waking up the residents, singing to every word of a statement, relationships, the future.

I'm deprived of sleep yet, it has been a good night =)

Taken from Loretta's blog (found it interesting):

Proof that 2A06 is really way too active; CSM [one of our most patient and mild tutors],

1st degree - "Class, can you all please keep quiet while i'm explaining?"
2nd degree - "Class, i really can't hear myself."
The last straw - "Class, can you all just shut up and do your work?!"

Ironically, the group of us actually laughed when he said the last remark. 'Damn bad lah'.

So (again), I was tossing and turning in bed tryin' to get some sleep. Whilst I was doing that I was pondering to myself that each individual has his/her own right to define what happiness and success is to them. And then while I was typing the last sentence, I realised that love doesn't last; care does. Okay, this is like a personal thingy. So yeah.

Forever in relationships? I'd rather for life. Why? Cos' the deceased won't exactly be capable of giving you the support you need right? He/She'll only be able to do it in life. From the other world? Now that's a thought.

Thus my version of BFF would be BFL.

Buddies For Life.

But of course I doubt it'll catch on cos it also stands for Big Fat Liar. Waha.

It's like almost 3 in the morning and yet I can't seem to get myself to sleep. I've been having trouble getting to sleep. For the past week or longer, I'd been sleeping without the air conditioner, turning on the fan or even doing without it cos it gets irritating with your hair getting blown in your face. Even since the air conditioner got repaired over the weekend, this is the first night I'm switching it on. Hopefully by the time I'm done with this entry, I can get the sleep that I need.

So tonight I've learnt a fair amount of stuff. I randomly found myself reading up on religions around the world, probably sparked by the fact that I didn't know that the Jehovah's Witness is a religion (forgive me for my ignorance). Conversely I discovered the latter cos it was on Yahoo! news that the parents of the first set of sextuplets (in some region) refused a blood transfusion for their babies cos it was against their religion. So yeah, I thought I could happily go through each religion since I thought they would just give me some brief description. On the contrary, it provides you with the works--history, beliefs, customs, practices, etc. I have only read up on Atheism, which is the non-belief of God. (ponders for few seconds) Come to think of it, does it even qualify as a religion?

And then there's Baha'i. A relatively 'new' religion, it originates from Iran, and is a religion that believes that there is truth in all religions e.g. Buddhism, Islam, which I think is kind of interesting.

Of course my brain got kinda dehydrated so after I was done with that, I got my attention to my own faith, somethin' I was already familliar with. Totally surprised to find out that there are Muslim boybands. Like seriously, BOYBANDS. Who'd have thought? There's this band called Seven8Six from America who sing Nasyids in R&B style, though I think the rhythm is kinda weird and their music video(s) is somewhat cheesy.

So after my interesting dicoveries, I sat myself in front of the tv. And after channel surfing for a few minutes, I decided to watch 'Ali's 65'. It's a documentary on Muhammad Ali's life. Before this, I just thought he was this outspoken boxer, won some great fights, has Parkinson's disease, and is famous for the line "Float like a buttefly, sting like a bee". There's like so much more to me. A voice to the minority. A strong believer in his values. Cocky, yet delivers in the ring. The greatest boxer. I've so much respect for him now. And who'd have thought he was connected to Malcom X.

All this talk probably bores some most of you lot. HAHAHA.

Though I will say that being nice doesn't pay. And Sarah will bear witness to this statement. Heh. Give give give, but one shouldn't expect to receive. WHY?!?!?!

Okay, that was so uncalled for. But seriously, to me, there are 3 types of recipients. No wait, 4.

1. When you give, they'll be indebted to return the favour. For example: Doing important quizzes and getting free lunch/dinners in return without even asking for them. Proudly provided for by YSL-- that's you SAM and your oh-so-gay friend =D
   
2. When you give, they acknowledge it. Yet, it seems as if they're stepping all over you.
   
3. When you give, they, again, acknowledge it. And when they say their thanks, you can really feel that they mean it.
   
4. And then there are thanks that you just can't seem to feel, though you know they really mean it.

In somehow unrelated issues, "Why am I the one supposed to slog it off so that they can do their own business? As if I don't have mine". But nvm. I shall be nice =D

Me = Sarcastic + Not prone to showing enthusiasm (random)

"Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It’s not on the calendar, it’s not a birthday, it’s not a new year, it’s an event --big or small, something that changes us, ideally it gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to" - Meridith, Grey's Anatomy Season 2: Begin The Begin

So now I ask you, my friend, which of the few things are really worth holding on to, and which are not?

'Tis the season to be a tv freak junkie. Hohoho!

Why? One of the reasons:

AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 6 IS PREMIERING THIS WEDNESDAY!!!

That's on top of the 6 TV series I'm currently hooked on, which I'll gladly list down:

Heroes (Save the cheerleader, save the world!)

Prison Break (Damn the Vice President! Conspiracy!)

Dirt (Courtney Cox makes one helluva mean biatch)

Supernatural (It's Sam, not Sammy)

CSI:LV (Warrick *sigh*)

Grey's Anatomy (Okay I admit I've never actually followed through the seasons but basing on 'Straight From The Heart', it's definitely a show to watch)

Thank God for cable tv and eMule.

But for now, this week, will be pretty busy with Open House and online assignments. Has anyone seen the OH bags? You have a choice of either orange or army green =
It's funny. I'm supposed to be busy, yet I'm not busy. Did that even make sense? Okay, forget it.

You know you're bored off your mind when even though you've a presentation to give in less than 20 mins, you're singing songs from 6 different languages. Or wait, maybe it's just me.

Pei Xuan once told me,"You'll have many friends when you enter poly, but you'll only have few true friends there". The year was 2005. Forward to 2007 and I now suddenly realise what she meant after all.

Seconday school life = JC life

Secondary school life ≠ Poly life

I don't think I've to go through the differences between the both of them, but what I can say is that poly's kinda a sneak preview of whatcha gonna get in the working world. Hypocrites. Backstabbers. And then there are the real, genuine helpful and encouraging ones.

I read somewhere before that one should have friends out of the working place. So to me: School = Working World

Friends in SS and Poly are definitely different. It's like in both institutions you're stuck with the same group of people for periods of time, yet the sense of emotional attachment is more prevalent in the former. I swear that no one has ever seen me cry in Poly, as in the 'ugly cry' sorta cry. In SS, the whole class and probably some more. Probably poly's the place where one grows up to be the working adult.

In conclusion, I'm glad that I've friends whom I've an emotional attachment to, both in and out of the 'workplace', even though it's fewer in the former.

Friday & Saturday - Sports Symposium

I think it's the longest I've been backstage and have had the longest air time. Lols.

Sunday - 'Wan Neh's' 19th Birthday

The first and last time eating at NYDC =
Laser 'show' at the Fountain. Neh was touched by the message *aaawwwwww*

Esplanade. Mint Choco cake eaten with pieces of cardboard. Cam-whored. Cold jokes. Bliss =D



*smiles without teeth were intended

Off to Tam Central's Mac to talk *grins*

Cabbed home close to 3 in the morning. Would have stayed longer but I'd school later.

Amazingly I managed to stay awake throughout the long day.

Oh, my term test results were good. Not excellent, but good's enough.

Anyways, I've been stuck on this song by Nelly Furtado. I've listening to it over and over and over..........

To begin with (and not seem to appear like a stick in the mud), I shall start off the year with this random thingy.

your name plus "poo";
azimahpoo? (this is a dumb question lah)

two feelings at the moment;
contented, sentimental

what are you listening to right now;
Seether Feat. Amy Lee - Broken

a part of a song lyric that is in your mind now;
"I don't need a man to make it happen, I get off being free.. I don't need a man to make me feel good, I get off doing my thing.. I don't need a ring around my finger to feel complete so lemme break it down.. I can get off when you ain't around.. Oh!"

the highlight of the week;
simply hangin' out with dear ones

what are you craving to have right now;
Mango Ice Blended from Starbucks & a Zinger

unforgettable childhood memory;
times in Jeddah - the school concerts, playing with neighbours around the compound

not so good memories;
whatever events that had me gone into a slight depression. lols.

what are your nicknames;
azi, azizi, zee, ah mah, imah, emma, xiao bian, anak cik azizah, mah, bitch (the list can go on and on)

your 3 plans for tomorrow;
attend school, have dinner with penny after school, watch Taboo!

are you thinking of someone now;
blank

are you single;
yes, and not interested for the moment. waha.

what do I want;
world peace (cheesy, but true)

say anythin' you want to whoever is reading your blog;
hey, how you doin'? *grins*

are you feelin' hungry;
nah huh. 2 1/2 meals is enough for the day.

who what are you missin' right now?
my bed.

last friend you talked to online;
SAM YUZHE

what do you like about the night;
fresh cooling breeze, the silence of the night (excluding those irritating MVs), the darkness

what would you like to see;
a shooting star!

what would you want to be till now;
High Commissioner to the Thai Embassy =X

last gift;
ring from mum (I lost it dammit.)

do you like it;
yah huh, but sadly *moment of silence*

do you play an instrument;
sax, and maybe a few others.

what song did you last hear;
Michael Jackson - Billy Jean

people I hate most;
men with no balls (not literally)

who makes you laugh the most;
cast of F.R.I.E.N.D.S, and my own friends.

what makes you smile;
knee-length genuine leather boots =D

who do you have a crush on;
a certain "Russian" guy (real life), Jensen Ackles (move away Jules, he's mine whatever you say =p)

name 6 people to do this;
(I shan't name any. Waha)


Went to meet FX for dinner at CS. Talked and talked till like 11+

Did FOI tutorial.

I actually have lotsa thoughts to type down, but I'm kinda tired. (ok, maybe I've forgotten most of them)

Though ONE thing I'll say is,"Why do people still have to get jealous?"

Scenario: Boy meets girl. Boy lets girl go out with guy friends. Girl lets girls go out with girl friends. Then suddenly either one of them will tell the other how insecure they feel when he/she hangs out with the opposite sex friends.

What has ever happened to trust in a relationship?

(singlish) I hear bout' this relationship jealousy shit nonsense, I lyka sian can?

Look. Why do you have to worry bout' your boyfriend/girlfriend probably hooking up with their opposite sex friends? If they wanted to hook up, they'd have done that like wayyyyyyyy before they got to know you.

AND, if you know that your significant other will be unreasonably jealous of the special bond you have with your apparently 'good friend', please do all of us a favour. Either a) Have less contact with the person b) Twist your words a lil' when 'reporting' (ignorance is bliss, not everythin' was made to be made known or c) Enjoy the truckload of s*** you'll be faced with in the upcoming future.

Peace.